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FOCUS ON YOUR LIFE!
DREAMS CAN COME TRUE, IF YOU PUT OUT THE EFFORT!
If you want to change the world
start by changing yourself, it is the
most profound contribution you
can make.
CHANGE ANI'T CHANGE UNTIL YOU CHANGE.

MY GENERATION WANTED TO MAKE A CHANGE, BY AND LARGE THOUGH OUR APPROACH WAS
OFTEN NOT THE MOST OBJECTIVE AND THE MATERIALISM AND GREED WE FOUGHT AGAINST IS
STILL WITH US, WE MAKE AN IMPRESSION AND HAD SOME POSITIVE EFFECT.  

WE KNEW IT WASN'T RIGHT FOR PEOPLE TO BE TREATED LIKE THEY WERE SECOND CLASS
BECAUSE OF THEIR ETHNICITY, RACE, GENDER, OR THEIR SEXUALITY.  WE WEREN'T ALWAYS
RIGHT IN OUR APPROACH OR TACTICS BUT WE CARED.  SO MANY OF MY HIGH SCHOOL
FRIENDS AND EVEN MY OWN DAD SERVED IN SOUTH EAST ASIA BUT I STILL FEEL AS I DID THEN
THAT THERE WAS NO REALLY GOOD REASON FOR THAT WAR. WE CARED ABOUT MANY SOCIAL
ISSUES AS WELL AS THE ENVIRONMENT.



I GAVE UP A LUCRATIVE JOB AS A BARBER/STYLIST IN THE FINANCIAL DISTRICT BECAUSE MY
LIFE HAD BECOME A RUT.  OH YEAH I MADE GOOD MONEY AND BEING A WELL BUILT HETERO-
SEXUAL YOUNG MALE IN A CITY WITH A LARGE GAY POPULATION MEETING ATTRACTIVE
YOUNG WOMEN WAS NO PROBLEM.  I HAD A NICE BACHELOR PAD EVERYTHING SHOULD HAVE
BEEN JUST PEACHY, DOWN DEEP THE ENDLESS PARTIES, WOMEN, DRUGS DIDN'T FILL THAT
HOLE THAT WAS GROWING IN MY SOUL.

BACK THEN SAN FRANCISCO WAS LOT DIFFERENT THAN NOW, THE CITY WAS ALIVE WITH
OPTIMISM.  IT HAD BECOME A MECCA FOR PEOPLE ALL AROUND THE COUNTRY EVEN THE
WORLD.  THERE WERE SOME PRETTY SLEAZY PEOPLE DRAWN OUT THERE BECAUSE OF THE
FREEDOM AND REVOLUTIONARY FERVOUR IN THE AIR.  CHARLEY MANSON CAME THROUGH
SOME OF THE PEOPLE I HAD RUN INS WITH WERE JUST AS BAD THEY DIDN'T GET HIS PRESS
THOUGH (LIKE A BUNCH THAT CALLED THEMSELVES THE STP FAMILY).

WE FOUGHT FOR DISTRICT ELECTIONS OF SUPERVISORS HARVEY MILKS FOLKS WANTED TO
KNOW IF WE'D VOTE FOR A GAY GUY, WE SAID WHY NOT!  

I MOVED IN WITH THE WHITE PANTHERS AND WORKED WITH THEM FOR SEVERAL YEARS, THEY
WERE VERY SINCERE BUT BOY WERE THEY MISGUIDED, I WAS ABLE TO CHECK OUT THE
BLACK PANTHERS.  I TRAINED WITH THE KARATE CLASS THE BLACK PANTHERS HAD AT THE
ELEMENTARY SCHOOL THEY FOUNDED IN EAST OAKLAND.  STEVE McCUTCHEON THE
INSTRUCTOR INVITED ME TO BE ON THEIR PROFESSIONAL KARATE TEAM.

WHEN HUEY NEWTON CAME BACK FROM CUBA I HELPED ORGANIZE THE RECEPTION AT SFO.  
ABOUT THAT TIME SOME FOLKS CAME OUT FROM CHICAGO THESE PEOPLE WERE MEMBERS
OF A GROUP CALLED THE INTER COMMUNAL SURVIVAL COMMITTEE OF THE BLACK PANTHER
PARTY.  THEY INSISTED I COME WITH THEM TO CHICAGO.  

HUEY HAD TO COME THRU CANADA AND THE CANADIANS DETAINED HIM, WE ORGANIZED A
DEMONSTRATION AT THE CANADIAN EMBASSY IN SF.  JIM JONES SENT A BUNCH OF PEOPLE
TO HELP US GET THE BODY COUNT  UP.

ALL KINDS OF CRAZY THINGS STARTED HAPPENING, HUEY BEAT THE MURDER RAP HE HAD
WENT INTO EXILE TO AVOID, BUT IT BEGAN THE DEMISE OF THE BLACK PANTHERS.  YOU ALL
KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO PEOPLE's TEMPLE.

DAN WHITE KILLED MAYOR MOSCONE A MAN SO PROGRESSIVE DURING MY TENURE WITH THE
WHITE PANTHERS WE MET WITH HIM AT CITY HALL TO DISCUSS AND TRY TO RESOLVE SOME
ISSUES.  HE ALSO KILLED OUR GUY THE SUPERVISOR FROM OUR DISTRICT HARVEY MILK,
HARVEY MEANT ALOT TO THE GAYS BUT HE MEANT SOMETHING TO US TOO BECAUSE HIS
BEING GAY WASN'T IMPORTANT BUT HIM BEING A PROGRESSIVE WAS.

I LEARNED A LOT IN CHICAGO, BUT IN MY GUT I KNEW THAT IN SPITE OF THE FACT THAT THE
LAW ENFORCEMENT COMMUNITY ON EVERY LEVEL HAD IT OUT FOR THE PANTHERS THERE
WAS SOME INTERNAL FLAWS THAT WOULD EVENTUALLY CAPSIZE THAT ENDEAVOUR.

SO, I MADE A DECISION I LEFT CHICAGO, AND WAS PROMISED THAT I WOULD HAVE NO PLACE
IN ANY CREDIBLE PROGRESSIVE ORGANIZATION IF I WENT THROUGH WITH MY DECISION.  BUT
THERE WAS A GIRL I MET DURING ALL THIS SHE WAS WITH THE GROUP IN SF, I KNEW SHE
WOULD PROBABLY LEAVE AND I WOULD LOOSE TOUCH.  I WENT BACK TO GET HER, I HAVE
BEEN WITH HER FOR 33 YEARS NOW, WE HAD 6 CHILDREN AS WELL AS MY OLDEST DAUGHTER
FROM A PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIP.

THEN I GOT WIND OF A DEATH THREAT, SINCE SO MANY OF THE PROBLEMS THAT PPL HAD
WERE RESOLVED BY SOMEONE GETTING KILLED, I TOOK THE THREAT SERIOUSLY. ON MARCH
1ST 1977 I WAS ON A LUFTHANSA JET BACK TO GERMANY WHERE I WAS BORN AND MY FAMILY
LIVED, I WANTED SO MUCH TO BE ABLE TO HAVE A RESPITE FROM THE MADNESS OF MY LIFE
OF THE LAST SEVERAL YEARS,  BUT THATS ANOTHER CHAPTER BECAUSE MY FAMILY WAS
JUST A LITTLE MORE DYSFUNCTIONAL THAN I REALIZED.   EMAIL ME AND TELL ME IF YOU
WANT TO HEAR MORE.